it's all happening

I love that term. or shit ton. fuck ton. fuck load. haha I like how I’ve been absent for a while once again and this is my first post back. WINNING!  

biking more than ever and all over. I love it. I climbed to the top of Waialaie today with Sau to see the Hangover II at the Kahala Mall. crazy shit. riding clears my head, makes my heart pound, and gives me the endorphins I so badly need. my thighs are like fucking cannons or something. I played softball and soccer for 9 and 10yrs, so I’ve always had these thunderous thighs but now they’re like chiseled rocks. CHEE! polo bike nearly finish, thinking of buying a 3rd bike, a Bianchi Pista! loveeee! 55cm and purdy. we’ll see. it would be a fixed gear and used for tricks and nonsense. I would definitely ride it though. I finally got skid stopping down like a MOTHER FUCKER. now time to test the skills on a huge ass hill haha. it’s like I’m asking for my teeth to be knocked out.

I’m making a zine all about funny things I like such as: cats, pugs, bicycles, glitter, marijuana, food, glitter, confusing people, attractive men, nudity. it’s going to be called Mass Glitter Confusion! get stoked, when it’s finished I’ll let you know so if you want I can send a copy, only 30 issues of each zine will be made cause I really realllllllyyyyy doubt they’ll be in demand haha.

I’m throwing a party this Friday. It’s a fancy cheese and wine type party, there’ll be tons of sangria and finger foods! I’ve asked people to dress up. I plan on decorating my backyard with flowers and lights and paper lanterns and there’ll be 2 tables with delicious food. I need to find a punch bowl to serve the roofied sangria in. I hope it goes well, it’s costing me a lot and I just want it to go off without a hitch. 

I don’t like my job as much as I use to. I still have the passion and drive for what I want to do but I don’t like where I work or who I work with. too much to explain, but I need to get off this island. I’m drawing more though, on flash set like #8, also making funny little drawings for friends. gotta keep going and fake that smile. also made a new rule for myself, no badmouthing anyone at all ever. unless you’re up in my grill, you don’t exist if I don’t like you. easiest way to avoid bad thoughts and situations. 

I like someone. he’s nice, golden, funny, bearded, and absolutely confusing. I don’t know what to think of him. as long as it doesn’t turn down the road of “booty call” I’m open to whatever turns we take. I just wanna go to the movies with him and long bike rides and talk about funny things. nice and slow. like butt sex. HAHA no. I wish some of you could hear how I speak in real life because it would probably be funnier for you. 

that’s about it for now. not too much but just enough. oh man I hope things work out. I’m real sad for some reason even though I have so much fun stuff going on. I don’t want to be here anymore, I don’t being toyed with, I don’t like rude people, I don’t like being ignored. I want to be home where I’m loved and happy and I giggle 24/7. I can’t wait to be inside Austin. I really need a boost. 

have a beautiful, wonderful, marvelous day. I know I’ll try, I get to go to Chinatown tomorrow with the excellent Miss Annie and look for paper lanterns, decorations, and flowers for the party. <3